deerheart

I lost the 1st 7 lbs really quickly but things seemed to have slowed up.  I shouldn’t say things…it’s me…I’ve slowed up.  Saying “things” qualifies it as some external force that somehow has control over me.  So I have to take responsibility …it’s me.  I haven’t been planning out my meals and I haven’t started an exercise regime yet.  This is usually the point where I give up.  But I’m reading your blogs and I’m inspired not to give up (especially yours Wonder Woman )  So I need to set some goals for my self.  Today, I will try to figure out how the food log works so I can track all my food starting tomorrow. (Any hints/suggestions I would appreciate … I’m not very computer saavy :o) ) and once I hit the 10 lb weight loss mark I resolve to begin exercising. I know it’s up to me to make this a priority if I want it bad enough. 

… is gone.  Now here comes the tough part.  I’ve lost the 1st 5 lbs hundreds of times, I’m good at losing the 1st 5lbs.  I’m hoping that this site and the idea of accountability and “Buddies” who are sailing the same ship as you has got me feeling hopeful.  I always start, screw up somewhere along the way and then give up.  I know I have to allow myself some mistakes and just get “right back on the wagon.”  My problem is that I can be a perfectionist so that if I don’t follow my diet or exercise regime to a tee, then I just totally give up.  I have to forgive myself for imperfection and realize that this needs to be a conscience decision everyday and not just on days that are going “perfectly.” I can’t just keep putting off the fact that I need to lose weight, waiting for the perfect time, place or situation that’s going to kick me into gear.  The time is NOW and it has to be for everyday from now on.  God help me to maintain my intrinsic motivation and in doing so serve as motivation to others.

Aquene (Peace)

…isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself…